The legacy we leave behind us in our journey

When we make the empowered decision to take back control of our lives, there is another hard fact that we need to face up to. While going through the trauma that engulfed our life’s for so many years, there is always going to be a fall out. Mine was the peace and protectio
I thought I had imparted to my son. There was a shutter during that time, which when faced with something painful came hammering down. Shutting down was the only way I knew, of getting through those painful days in my life. Sitting here now I am able to take reasonability, and I will regret those years always. You see the people we love become the people we hurt the most. This is not at all intentional on our part, but because they love us back it’s inevitable. During those years my son felt that it was his duty to protect me. That he should have been able to stop the madness going on all around me, but this was not a job for a boy in his teens. My past along with my present at that time was so very hard for him. Years later we would sit and have a conversation, one in which he told me of his own painful memories. Was this the legacy that I had left him with? These are very difficult words for me to write, but it would be so much harder if I were not facing them. We have to learn to forgive our abuser to move on, just as the people in our own lives that we love have forgiven us. We owe it to them to make a conscious effort to do just that.