What's The Purpose?

What's The Purpose? Maybe you ask yourself this! At least I did, until I was sitting there wondering, can there be anything I can do to change the way my relationship is going? I am going to share a little about my own current situation and what I am doing to make my relationship work. Maybe this will be useful for you too! Read on! Ok so here is my current situation and what I am doing to try and fix it. First, before I share my short story just remember "YOU CAN NOT CHANGE YOUR SIGNIFICANT OTHER", we as humans are not designed to do such a thing. What you can do, is have a positive outlook on maintaining the passion, desire, curiosity and fire your relationship once had. Here is my story and what I am trying to do to maintain that positive desire of passion and fire between myself and my love of my life. My name is Mike Prudhume and I am 33 years old with a family that I love very much. I have three sons; their names are Michael, Phillip and Nicholas. My wife that I have been married to for four years now but in the relationship for sixteen years, her name is Myrna. I have often asked myself over the years, how did I get so lucky to have this beautiful women come into my life and give me the best three gifts in the world. My three boys, who I truly love and I am very blessed to have in my life they are the best thing I can ask ever ask for. Now, you may think I have no issues with my current situation, right? Wrong! This is my situation as of current September 25, 2009. Now keep in mind I wrote this in or about the beginning of the month but I have been utilizing this information I’m going to share with you as well. So what is it? Keep reading… What's The Purpose?rnHave you ever been told that “you are not trying hard enough” or “you need to do something about it”? When really all that you are doing is trying very hard but things just don’t seem to be working out. No matter what you do it just seems like everything is all messed up! Well, I'm in those shoes right now. These days it seems all I have been doing is trying to figure out a solution to gain my confidence back, especially when I was the main provider for my family and bringing in the income, food, paying the bills etc. I don’t know, is it worth it? That’s the question that I at least ask myself. I often wonder sometimes, what’s the purpose? I mean what’s the purpose I'm writing this article right now? I don’t know! I'm sitting here in my garage and looking at this keyboard as I write and writing whatever comes to mind at this specific moment. This is all B.S though, the economy being bad, people who lost their job, house, vehicle or whatever it is that means the most to them. All I have tried to do is gain my independence back, you know, that will to succeed. Here, I have my own business, Central Valley Surveillance Systems and I can’t even do anything with that at the moment because I don't have my Contractors license. You know this really sucks sometimes. I just don't get it. What’s the purpose? I constantly argue with my wife about this situation were in. I know I have my family to worry about and yet it just doesn't seem like she listens. When we first got together, she always wanted to be right there with me and be involved with things that I liked. Why does this fire of passion, desire and curiosity have to change? Our relationship was very good up until we started having children, this changed everything. When we were once very close and very personal with each other has now become a path to slowly fade away. Don't get me wrong, I love Myrna with all my heart and she is the best thing that has happened to me in my earlier days. Why do I say my earlier days? Because without her I would have never graduated high school let alone go to college. She has always gave me that sense of feeling that no one could stop you, you vision something, Go for It! this feeling has always been strong but of course now this feeling is slowly fading away. I no longer feel that I am capable of holding that torch way up in the sky and feel that power that I once had. I know that it's still there but I'll tell you it's very hard to achieve something you believe in when your significant other is constantly worried about money, bills, medical care for children, gas for vehicle, etc. When this happens, it makes it very difficult to gain that self confidence. You start asking yourself, why me? Why does this have to be happening? You even go as far as changing your ways to try and make it better. It's like your having to try and find your inner strengths all over again. It’s been two months since I drank any kind of alcohol. Like I said you try very hard to change bad habits or your bad ways. Today on this day September 25, 2009 I went to the store and bought two thirty-two ounce miller highlife beers. I'm drinking them as I write this. I don't know writing this and drinking these beers have helped me to calm down. Earlier I was pissed! I'm listening to some alternative rock and writing. I just paused and took a drink. Beer is starting to get warm but I don't mind. What to do? Getting back to changing my ways, I have even gone as far as going to church. Doing this was a big step for me. I tried to go a few years back with Myrna and believe me I tried. For some reason though it just didn't comprehend in my mind. So again, I ask, what’s the purpose? Let me recap for a moment, when I was little my mom and dad went as far getting me baptized through a catholic church. This is all I know that has happened. I don’t know who my Nina and Nino are and really it doesn't matter anymore, but because I'm on the subject of talking about change. I decided to try the church thing again with Myrna. Her friend that she grew up with in her neighbor hood invited her to attend a church that she attends. This church which is a pretty cool church, updated, nothing like the old ways is a good church to attend. So here I am, now attending this church, and its part of a live church, trying to see if I can get the message that is being presented in the form of God. Earlier when I said I tried to attend church before with Myrna has now become quite clear on the message that is being presented to the small crowd. In the earlier days I could not understand such a message, nor did I even try to understand then. But because of my life becoming what I thought "What’s the purpose" is now becoming clear. At times I am a bit confused but it’s only because I tend to lose focus but that usually doesn’t last that long, cause I get back on track. I mentioned that I'm writing this and drinking beer at the same time. Now I don't want to contradict myself but who knows I might be drunk off of two thirty-two ounce beers or I am really just messed up. Who knows? What’s the purpose? All I know is, I continue to try hard to gain my self control and my independence. Did I mention I am currently unemployed? This whole subject I am writing about seems like this whole problem, situation I have with my wife is based on the fact I don't have a job but like I mentioned it's very hard especially with these tough economic times. But I need to be patient as well as positive. I continue to do that and I do it with the help of this product. You should try this if you are having a similar situation. It really does help and I'm glad I found it.