Conscience - Found It?

It was a very interesting day yesterday. A day where I had a wonderful opportunity to lunch with a psychiatrist associate, then golf with a business coach I have known for years, but never had the opportunity to spend one on one time with.
Upon reflection this morning, and looking at what has made the biggest shift inside of me over the years, I think it’s hearing my conscience.
I’ve always had one; it certainly made me feel really guilty for many years because I found ways not to listen. I learned, with training and mood altering substances and behaviors, I could make this “voice” a background, always there, but suppressed. I have no doubt that in my mind I created Disneyworld. Through what I know now to be insane behavior, I moved in to Disneyworld and convinced myself it was real. Can others relate?
In 1994, I had a moment of clarity. The small quiet voice that was always there roared out, “Listen to me before you lose even more!”
And for some reason, I not only heard it, I heeded it. A journey began.
Inside all of us is a small quiet voice. Call it conscience. Call it your source. Call it your higher power. Call it whatever you want, but learn to hear it.
Today, I make sure I get quiet time as part of my day. I have learned through training and practice to stop the squirrels from running in my head, to shut down the thoughts that are unconscious ego at play. In this still time, the small, quiet voice is heard.
To escape Disneyland, I have been living in the real world, I allow myself to feel my feelings, and others taught me to identify what they are. I can deal with exte
al and internal pain without medicating. In areas where significant decision is required, I am more patient and allow myself to hear the quiet voice inside most of the time.
This came with spiritual awakening, and a realization that for all the many years I lived a life driven by self-will and low self-esteem, that there was a higher power that dwelt within and all around me.
We all have this small quiet voice within. I have heard others talk about imaginary objects on each shoulder in constant conflict. Others call it good and bad, devil and god, and so on. I really don’t care how it is described. I’m just grateful that I learned to listen to my conscience before I went down even lower!
The journey since has been great, living in the real world certainly has its problems, but to feel and be “in the game” is what is meant to be.
Have you found that small quit voice, do you take the quiet time to listen to your conscience?