Catching the Contradiction

“All riiiiight,” I said to my six year old black cat crouched and hiding behind the reading chair. “I’m trusting you then.” Cher’s not usually allowed free rein of the house, since she has been known to do bad kitty deeds. (She’s actually notorious for it, thanks to me.) But I couldn’t catch her to return her to the office. So I opted for taking the leap of faith that she was trustworthy and would behave herself properly while unsupervised. (Last time I did that it didn’t turn out fabulously well.) As I walked away from the chair she was crouched behind, I found myself starting a mental tally of the damage she could do. “Maybe I should put a blanket on that couch; it might be smart to close the bedroom door.” And I realized these are not the thoughts nor actions of a person who is feeling trust. Nice catch on not vibing what I thought was. (Note to self: clean it up!) Which made me wonder how many other times and on what other occasions I’ve done the same: saying I felt one way but really not coming anywhere close to it. Sound familiar? I’ve seen it a handful of times this last week in others, as well. Like when my sweetheart said he trusted his son to follow through on filing paperwork for the insurance claim, but when it was revealed the forms weren’t sent, Russ wasn’t surprised. (If you really trusted someone to do something, you wouldn’t expect the opposite, right? That was nothing but nice lip service, sweetie.) Or when one of my clients said he was confident he would get the job offer, and he then spent the week worrying he might not. (Confidence doesn’t rendezvous with worry.) Or when my computer said a really bad thing the other day (so bad I won’t repeat it), and I shut her down to let her get her head together, then hit the restart button and left the room so she could do her happy & good thing in peace (without interference from my nervous vibe). But when I approached the office door ten minutes later, I could feel anxiety growing as I wondered whether I would see anything on the screen or not. (Luckily, I caught the contrary vibe flowing then, too, and detoured myself before coming back an hour later after playtime with foster kitties, completely forgetting I even had a trouble to start with.) The point being: we can say the words, but if we’re not feeling the feeling, Universe is getting a completely different instruction from us! And we know how this stuff works - we get what we’re vibrating (i.e. what we’re feeling.) So, Cher, I’m gonna do a little cleaning up of the vibe right now before I make the rounds. Actually, a person who truly trusted her cat was on her best behavior wouldn’t be making any rounds, so scratch that! And now I invite you to check in on where you might be saying one thing but doing another, cause I kinda got a feeling I’m not alone in this one. ;) Would love to hear your experiences of how you catch the contradiction and how you clean it up, as well!