Circus Yoga: Learning How To Fly

Last week I participated in a CIRCUS YOGA class. rnWhat drew me to the class were the words fun, community, collaboration. rnToo often, we think that, in order to connect to our hearts, we have to do it alone. rnSure, there are some things we need to do alone. Silent meditation, solo retreats and solitary adventures all help us find our unique power and vulnerability. But we are on this planet together and there can be great gifts gained by working together in community, by sharing in a group, by coming together for a single purpose. rnWhen we work with others, we feed off of a larger energy. We can enjoy the benefits of other people's strengths and ideas. We can let go of our need to "do it all" and control everything, knowing that someone else is there to support us, guide us and carry the weight. So when I saw the announcement for this Circus Yoga class, I was excited, curious and I thought, YES! I'm in. rnAnd immediately I heard all of my excuses in my head: "It's a Friday night, I'll be too tired." "I have to teach a class the next morning." rnI looked at the website and saw people of all ages, connected in a circle, juggling, standing in human pyramids, and I thought, "Yes, that DOES look fun!" rnAnd then more voices: "I'm too big to be lifted." "I'm not strong enough to be a base support on the bottom." "What if I can't breathe?" rnOne thing I know about myself is that, what I resist most is the thing I need to do. It's where my biggest growth can happen. rnAnd so I calmed myself, reminding myself that I could take a nap that afternoon if I needed to. That, even if I wasn't able to participate in every activity, just BEING there, being a part of the community experience would be wonderful. rnAnd in that brave and clear space, I signed up for the class. rnThere were 22 of us, aged 8 to 80. The 80 year old had recently learned how to fly on a trapeze at her grandkid's summer camp. There was an older man who couldn't touch his toes. There were slender and strong yoga instructors and several older-than-me women who practice regularly. rnBut I wasn't intimidated or second guessing my being there. I was proud and glad that I had chosen to come and I was ready for whatever the evening presented. rnWe began in a circle, sitting on the floor, cross-legged. We used our neighbor's bodies for support as we leaned left and right, stretching and sighing, twisting and reaching. rnWe paired up with partners, mirroring each other's movements, moving so slowly, in unison, until we no longer perceived a leader or a follower. rnWe pushed with sticks and pulled with ropes, creating silent conversations of trust between our bodies. rnAnd then Erin, one of the Circus Yoga leaders asked, "Who's never flown before?" rnI raised my hand, assuming it was just an information seeking question. But really, she was seeing who she might pick to demonstrate this partner-supported pose. rnShe chose a lean, strong, flexible woman with a yogi name. Erin laid on her back the the floor and the yogi stepped her feet around her, following Erin's directions. She tucked, she breathed, Erin placed her feet at the yogi's thigh crease and the yogi breathed again, allowing Erin to lift her. She raised up, long, lean, effortless. rnSeeing the yogi suspended over Erin's body, I remembered doing this as a kid, my father holding me by the hands, lifting my body in the air with his legs and me giggling and laughing. rnThe yogi relaxed her head and her body got longer, the backs of her palms rested on the floor. Erin moved her legs, flying the yogi slightly forward, then returning to center, the yogi's body still folded over her legs. rnThey held the pose for several minutes, the yogi completely relaxed. And then she retucked, refolded, leaned in and stood up, saying she felt so energized and tall. rnAnd then Erin asked, "Who else wants to try?" rnI don't remember raising my hand, but she called my name. And I was thrilled. rnI wasn't scared. I wasn't nervous. I wasn't worried that she wouldn't be able to lift me. rnI was so opened and ready and trusting. rnErin laid back on the floor and I stood with my feet next to her hips. She placed her feet just below my thigh creases and we breathed in together, connecting. Conspiring, she called it. Another breath in and she tucked her knees in as I folded toward her. Exhaling, I rested my hands on her shins. rnI folded forward, eyes closed, my head toward her heart, and then I was up in the air, the weight of my body so stable on her legs, her hands gently supporting my shoulders. rnI heard someone say that my hands weren't touching the floor. rnErin guided me to spread my own legs in a wider V and I felt my body release and relax, the backs of my palms now resting on the floor. Erin's hands were no longer holding my shoulders and I let go even deeper, breathing into all of the space within me and around me. rnIn that moment, I wasn't the biggest woman in the room. I wasn't the woman with tight hips and asthma. In that moment I was strong. I was vulnerable. I was flying. rnWorking with others can teach us so much about ourselves. Just showing up, open and receptive, can present us with the most amazing opportunities for opening our hearts.