Just One More

We all have days when we miss someone so terribly that our heart just aches. We never truly get over someone nor are we supposed to. Their loving soul still moves about, all around us. You can feel their presence everywhere.
Life was bearable when you were here, now there is an empty void. You gave me comfort and joy through life’s struggles and victories. You made life a game, never caring about the outcome, but always eager to play. On the most stressful days you had the most uplifting spirit and a contagious laugh which spread like wild fire. It is because you were so loving, uplifting and we had so much fun which makes me yearn for just one more. You were so special and so loved. You were such a loving and giving soul.
I long to see your beautiful smile, to feel your warm embrace, to hear the sound of your soothing voice, to feel your gentle touch, to hear your hearty laughter, to be mesmerized by the look in your eyes and to feel your tender kiss. I long for just one more!
Let me cry on your shoulder, let me hold you near.
Let me tell you how empty this world is without you here.
Let me tell you thank you for all of the wonderful memories.
Let me tell you about all the hurt and anger that I feel now that you’re gone.
Let me tell you how abandoned I feel when I think about all the plans we made and all the unanswered prayers.
Let me tell you about all of my hurt and fears.
Let me tell you how much I love you and miss you and how blessed I was to have you in my life.
Let me tell you that I just want to be selfish and keep you right here by my side!
We can’t bring back those who were near, but we can live our life with the passion that they had. So many people lose a big piece of themselves when someone close to them passes away. They just give up, their happiness had been depleted. Life would never be the same and they know it. The thing is, they are focused on the sorrow, the absence. During death, there really is no absence, only an afterlife which is their soul and it can be felt everywhere. They may be reinca
ated, if that is your belief. But, they surely are around you. Somedays you may feel their presence stronger than other days.
What are they saying? They are telling you to LIVE! Don’t waste a moment being unhappy. Don’t be sad! Go back and visit the places that were special, see them with a new sense of wonder and reflect on how happy you were. Take that happiness and carry it forth to new adventures. You have to learn to be happy again, to live again and to love again. They are saying, “be strong.” They are always by your side.
When you stop focusing on the sorrow, the absence, it doesn’t mean that you are no longer mou
ing their loss, you will always mou
their loss, but in a different way. You can laugh and be happy and still mou
the loss of someone. You do this by celebrating their life and by celebrating your life. Celebrate life with those that surround you. Embrace everything and welcome new friends and experiences. Feel and live again, let the numbness be gone. If you need strength, I will pray for strength. If you need a hug, I will send you a hug. If you need to feel again, take a moment to remember. If you need to see again, open your eyes, look around, look very closely and see them again. Take time to mourn, but don’t get lost in time.