The Bumpy Road to FAITH

I recently attended an amazing conference, SEVEN, intended to help entrepreneurs create seven-figure businesses. The conference was run by some coaches that I wanted to see live and in person and experience their message face-to-face instead of email. Plus my ticket was free and the conference was right down the road. I was in!

I got so much out of the conference that, when they made the audience an offer on the last day, I jumped on it! I decided that yes, I would pay $14,700 to join their next program for speakers.
It felt hugely empowering to make that vote of confidence in myself - that I'm worth a $14,700 investment (and more!). Even if they didn't give me any training, just writing that check would feel great (or so I imagined, prior to actually writing it).

I also felt like the universe was aligning for this decision. One of my goals is to raise my speaking profile and skills. The preceding day, Friday, before I left my house to drive to the conference, I'd received a phone call offering me my very first paid speaking gig. Also on Friday, the sale of my house closed, so a large sum of money was going to hit my checking account on Monday. The money was there; the demand was there. My decision to invest was a GO.
I left the conference on a high note, feeling really excited about the possibilities.
Fast forward one month, when it's time to actually write the check. I started thinking to myself: "This is really a big sum of money. When that money is gone, I'm going to be back into income uncertainty and I'm tired of that."
This led into a 48-hour anxiety attack that eventually ended up with me thinking: "What if I really can't make a six-figure income as a coach? What if there are only 5 coaches making a million dollars, and all they do is create a cult around them of people who pay them in the belief that they will become high-paid coaches, but they never do?!"
And at that point, in a semi-paranoic state where I'm imagining a conspiracy AND a cult, I just had to stop myself. I realized that if I really believed that I could NOT create a six-figure business or I really believed that seven-figure coaches are in a conspiracy, I would not be able to get out of bed in the morning.

Instead, I needed to have FAITH that I am on the right path, that I am in the right community, and that I'm making the right choices for my business.
Also, I have to have FAITH that even more prosperity, wonderful people, and amazing opportunities are on their way to me, even though I can't see them right now.
And faith is not comfortable. To me, comfortable is knowing what's going to happen. Comfortable is being certain of my choices. Unfortunately, that knowledge and certainty also leads to boredom and dead ends. My best business decisions and my favorite people were not planned or predicted.
Now I understand that my job is keep my faith: faith that I'm on the right track and faith that the universe is aligned with everything I ask for. When I have that kind of faith, all my worries: about money, about my message, about anything - just fade away.

Faith is powerful and it's also uncomfortable and it feels really good, all at once.
CALL TO ACTION

In your business, what belief have you had to move into FAITH about?