When Forgiveness Healed a Backache.

My story is about when I forgave my mother, my backache passed.

I grew up as a battered child and it was my mother that hurt me and my younger brother and sister. I was the eldest so when any of us did anything, I got the punishment. It was physical and mental violence daily for the first 15 years of my life.

In 2003, when I was 13 years old my mother attacked me and while she was hitting me she held me tight by pressing her knee into my back. As a result I have had a backache for many years.

In 2005 I moved in with my dad and his new girlfriend. My younger sister and I were outside playing with the horses and we both ended up with a hoof in our backs, and flown 5 meters away! The doctor told us that we should be more careful and just relax for the next couple of weeks. One week later my younger brother pulled back the chair I was sitting on and I feel right on my back……..again. My tailbone moved 1½ cm.

For some years I kept going to the doctors because I couldn’t understand why I still had a backache. The doctor said, “It could have something to do with the problems of the past but also now your breasts a very big and the weight of them could be adding to the pain”. He made a proposal to make them smaller but I didn’t even have to think about it, I just refused. I will not go under the knife!!! So I had accepted the fact that I would have a backache for the rest of my life.... I’m only 21.

On May 6th 2011 after I had read The Secret and other books about the Law of Attraction, I made a decision to forgive my mother and get on in my life.

I was sitting on my sofa and began to meditate. I saw my mother in front of me and I went over and gave her a hug. While I was standing with her in my arms, I told her I loved her, I want to forgive her and let the past, be past. I only want to look ahead. I said to her, “I now understand that you did the best you could with the knowledge and experience you had then”. I kept saying “I love you and forgive you”. I began to cry and let the tears fall down my cheeks. I sat in the meditation for 1½ hours and just forgave. I was saying “I love you and let the Little Sabrina inside of me cry all she wants to”. It was one of the most scary, yet beautiful things that had ever happened to me.

May 8th was my step mom’s birthday, and I told my dad and step mom that I had forgiven my mother and let the past, be past.

The night between May 8th and 9th a miracle happened. My backache as I had known it for 8 years had passed away. And it’s still gone.

I think it is such a beautiful story. The only thing I did to make my backache pass, was to forgive my mother.